I miss him a lot. I doubt he misses me. Pretty sure he found a new girl either an Asian or a black girl and is happier with her. I want to suppress the feelings but I do miss him so much. I would just want to have a nice drink with Im and tell him some great news since he was one of the people I thought about telling when I got the news. I doubt he’ll care though…
After it all ended, there is not one day that passes by that I do not think of him. I still love him a lot. I never stopped loving him even after every single bad thing he did to me. Where there was a happy conversation through texts or phone, now there is nothing. I sometimes look down at my phone hoping to find a small note for coffee or dinner but I come to face with nothing. Its very sad. What makes me even more sad is that I’m 100% sure he has someone else who is making him happy like I once did. Maybe a nubian princess how he loves to spoil or a asian girl he always desired. I also bet he does not think of me and is treating that person better than me. I guess I was very disposable like how many guys tell me. “You are just a easy lay. In reality you are a fat whore.”
After I had left to my second job, we started texting each other little cute text to each other. He invited me to have drinks with him and his friends but rejected him as I was very tired and I honestly just wanted to be with him alone.
A few days later, he asked me what I wanted for a man to do for me that would blow me away. I responded “to show up to my job with a bouquet of my favorite flowers.” He responded, “Thats it!? I was expecting that you wanted a car or an apartment. You deserve all that and more.” He said that I was humble and that he liked the fact that I liked simple things. I smiled and texted him reassuring that I was a simple girl with very good taste in certain things but materialistic things Im not very particularly upscale. Couple of days passed and we spoke on the phone couple of times, kept exchanging messages.
One morning though, he said he would love to see me since he would be in the city. I responded that I would be working all day and wouldn’t have time to see him and that we should schedule something later for the week. He agreed and made simple plans. Couple of hours later, I was at work when all of a sudden I see a man from afar walking into the establishment I work. He was carrying a bouquet of flowers and I recognized him immediately! I never thought he would have come all the way over just to see me along with my favorite flowers! I always fantasized a person liking me so much to do that for me! He came in and I greeted him with a smile. He kissed me on the cheek and handed me the huge flowers. “I couldn’t wait till Friday so I came looking for you! You look fantastic and your smile is what has me sprung!” I quickly kissed him on the lips and he was shocked.
I introduced him to my manager and he made funny jokes. We spoke a bit but he had to go to his meetings. He let me know if I was up for some drinks later that night that I should text him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to kiss me.
I saw myself actually liking him a lot before this but know I felt becoming a bit sprung. I liked this feeling a lot.
I had finally decided to quit my shit job, so I decided to go to my favorite restaurant to have a great time by myself. I sat at the bar and ordered a Manhattan and a cheeseburger with fries! The atmosphere was amazing, 4 pm the business crowed was happy and going and the staff of the restaurant was having a good time. My phone was blowing up because the word had spread that I had quit. In the corner of my eye, I see this man just slide over to me with his wine glass in hand. He was a man in his mid to late 40’s, at average height, blue-green eyes, normal build, and tan/olive skin tone. He’s a regular there as well as he was getting the treatment of a regular. He was eyeing me and made me feel uncomfortable because there is no way to eat a huge cheeseburger in a sexy feminine way!
I decided to directly look at him and ask him if he needed any assistance. He got a bit taken back and asked me how was my cheeseburger. I said it was great but that I couldn’t eat it with him looking at me directly. He laughed and then told me that I was the most attractive girl he had seen at the bar and that I shouldn’t be all by myself. That made me blush but I still couldn’t eat my burger. He noticed and asked me if I found him weird. In reality I didn’t, I thought he was sweet, handsome man. I finally started eating my burger and he found it funny how I was so shy eating in front of him.
Time flew as we spoke about everything from his past and his career to politics and music! I really liked his company and I found myself being really happy to be there with him! At last, I had to go and he asked if we could exchange numbers. I accepted and told him I had a blast with him. We really connected and I really liked him. I asked for my check and I laid down my card to check out. He got upset and he tossed his black card on top of mine and demanded the bartender to charge him. I looked at him with puppy eyes because I had drank a lot and plus food, I was going to pay. “Dont worry, you are worth much more than this!” I thanked him and I got up and said my good-byes. He took my hand and lead it around his neck to pull me close. He kissed me on my cheek and whispered “Im lucky to have met you.” in my ear before letting me go. I smiled at him and walked away. I looked back and he had a huge smile on his face as he checked my ass out.
I smiled back.
To be continued…
When I am at work or just walking around the streets of NYC, I always wonder if he misses me. I also wonder if he is treating the girl he is with now better then me.
Either way, I miss him.