Self Realization

It is almost 4am and I am wide awake. It just hit me that I have become an adult with responsibilities of myself and for certain others. It has me very concerned because I don’t feel like Im ready or that I can survive. I feel stuck in a way because I really hate my current life and I have no clue to start a┬ácareer. I just feel like I have no where to go right now and I also feel like I cant turn to anyone.

Luckily, I still have my parents but I know they will not be there for long and it driving me insane. Why? Because the sole fact that I feel like I will not be able to be anyone in the future, someone who matters. I need a career, I have a college degree and I have no idea where to start.

I am scared. I am scared that I will do something wrong. I am scared that I am doing something wrong.

On top of all this, I have no one to help me or no one to lean on…

Im scared of Failing. I just wish it would be over…